I know this will be temporary...

I know this will be temporary
I know this will be, but I've had enough
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FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. AGH. fuck fuck fuck. okay..now that that is out.. I am having horrendous anxiety tonight, i don't freakin know why. i am so fucking sick of this shit. i am tired of life, i am tired of trying, im tired of reaching out- or trying to at least. im pissing off people because they think i should be doing better than this. I AM DOING MY BEST. for christ's sake. i want OUT. i want to cut, to punish myself. im bordering on flashback, im trying to hold on, but hell.. i dont know how long it will last.



EDIT: BTW, I overdosed on 50 or so extra strength tylenol on July 13th.. i failed.