So I'm posting again. I'm super bored at my mom's house. She's broke so it eliminates a lot of options. I'm feeling lonely and everyone is offline on facebook. I feel like crap from earlier ED issues and I feel guilty too. I'm kinda upset that my therapist didn't call back (even though I know it's a saturday) because it's like, I just got out of the hospital, doesn't she want to know what they said and if I'm okay? I dunno. I feel lost and out of place. I hate this. I want to self injure so badly but I know I can't. My anxiety is rising. I dunno what to do. I have these intrusive images of suicide crap. fuck. i am not going into a psych. ward... not again.i cant. i have to live out here in this shitty world. :( ugh. damn it.