Wednesday, January 31, 2007

home again

back from IP. it helped w/ my part Rage. Im glad I don't have to jump right back into work full-time. i miss Samula and Dawnie-pooh-pooh-kiss-kiss! Write more later.<3,








-molliebear

Thursday, January 04, 2007

IP

I'm going IP. I dunno how long i'll be gone. thanks for the support <3,






-molliebear

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

i want to die

i feel like shit. i need help. i just cant ask for it. found a new tool. hoping i dont use it but hell, at this point i doubt that i wont. really hurting inside. nothing comforts me/us at this point besides SI/purging. i hate my life. i want to die. <3,







-molliebear

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

they came and evaluated me. im not going there for tonight at least. They have a waiting list. i feel anxious and antsy because i cant cut. UGH. I wish i had kept my blade. i really do. i miss it like it's a person so christ's sake. I miss Dawn. I feel like my friends are slipping away. off to do something, anything to relieve this whatever it is. I feel like this "1!%#@^$#^@$^#!@%^$@^#^". that's what i feel like inside. yuck yuck yuck.
Everything is falling apart. I gave my x-acto to a staff. im on the waiting list for the crisis house, it's about 2 days long. They apparently are coming out to assess me after 6 (my staff just told me this). im nervous for it. i need something though. if i dont post for a couple days, that is why. <3,






-molliebear