they came and evaluated me. im not going there for tonight at least. They have a waiting list. i feel anxious and antsy because i cant cut. UGH. I wish i had kept my blade. i really do. i miss it like it's a person so christ's sake. I miss Dawn. I feel like my friends are slipping away. off to do something, anything to relieve this whatever it is. I feel like this "1!%#@^$#^@$^#!@%^$@^#^". that's what i feel like inside. yuck yuck yuck.