hurt me

im so damn tired. i miss dawn. i miss katey. i feel generally melancholy. ive been cutting almost every day. i dont want to work tomorrow, it's a 39 hour work week. im worn out. emotionally, mentally, physically. my SI cuts hurt and bled a little through my pants at work, not noticeabily(SP?) enough though. i worry about being sent IP, though i dont need to worry- i haven't told my t or pdoc about the cutting or anything. i know lying to them doesn't help me get better but i dont want to disappoint them again. they think im doing so well. they just dont know im rotting inside. so many su thoughts. . it's a shitty place we live on planet earth. look right through me. <3,





-molliebear