mad world

today wasn't so bad. i went to work (I didn't get to train b/c the people that were supposed to train me didn't work). I got three credits (yay). I have off tomorrow (even more yay). I still feel all fat and bloatatious. i keep getting told im on too many meds. im considering weening down to less to see if i feel any better. im going to dye my hair tomorrrow, a burgandy color. my bracelet that dawn made me broke at work today :'( I still have the one she sent me while i was IP but i really liked the other one. I broke a different one the other day too! I was having a crappy day last wed. and saturday. i survived last night without self harming. barely,lol. i took a bunch of benadryll. im listening to music to try and calm my suicidal thinking stuff. feeling really anxious all of a sudden, dunno why. ugh. <3,





-molliebear