i feel sad and i dont know why. i feel the depression pulling me under the surface. i dont feel like doing anything and i have no one to talk to. i want to cry but the tears don't come. I miss R.- she wasn't my best friend or anything but i felt connected to her, and i wish she was still around for me to see her smile and hear her laugh. life sucks. i am realizing this for the millionth time. i want to be with my mom even though i saw her less than a couple hours ago. i want to be at home instead of here where day by day they make my existance a living hell. i want to give up, i want to so badly. Sam and Dawn are one of the the few reasons i stick around because I know my death would hurt them. so i will hang on, not for myself, but for others. <3,





-molliebear