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Just noticed that Olivia posted. I guess keeping them containined inside all the time doesn't help? I know better, I really do, I just like to deny it sometimes. They made me go to immediate care today because of my cough- i have an upper respiratory infection (duh) and they gave me 6 days worth of prednisone because my lungs are all inflamed. I don't have to have therapy tomorrow b/c I work 9:45am-4:45pm. I hate that shift ugh. I don't want to work but i have to if i want to go to OC on wednesday. On a better note, I bought a Sega Genesis from the thrift shop and two/three games with it. Nothing I'm quite interested in (shooting games and whatnot) but I wanted to play Sega. We're going to get more games sometime. We got a "Bop-it" (remember those??) too. I finally figured out my MP3 player, put a bunch of songs on it from the computer. I'm in an OK mood, but I have impulses to cut- reminding myself that I want to go to the beach on Wed. is not much of a consolation to myself- i want what i want when i want it. I've been having ED crap resurfacing too, it just pisses me off at how my own mind works. I feel like I'm drowning. I hate people asking me for stuff, they need to budget or something and not keep coming to me for stuff. I want to live by myself sometimes. Most of the time actually. I miss Dawn and Sam. Especially Sam b/c I never hear from her and she doesn't really answer e-mails. I miss my SP friends, they're all I have sometimes. I <3 Dawn!! <3,



-(a very lonely)molliebear