thin=good,pure,happy

i hate AGH , everything about me. im just so unhappy. i dunno what to do, i wanna SI but i can't. i just cant have any more scars, ugh. i wish i could puke all the fat up, i would spend all my time doing this until i was thin, and then i would not eat so much. this is my non-reality based theory. if i puke enough i will be thin.