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shut up just shut up shut up. My roomates are driving me CRAZY! They keep coming to me over petty shit that I don't even care about... I don't know if they know it's petty?.. I miss dawnie-pooh-pooh-kiss-kiss! Take me away!! I need some friends with cars is all. Or my own car. I actually really need a JOB but I feel like I need some time off from working. I didn't work because I wanted to, i kinda did it to prove to myself i could get hired. And I didn't appreciate the job so I lost it. It sucks because I really realize how good that job was. Minimum wage is now 6.15, I was being paid 7.25. I want my job back :P I miss BUS, I think they need a break from me. So, I've done nothing interesting or inspiring or important. I'm tired of fighting :( It's irritating to me. I live in a constant state of irritability. It's like a teenage/young adult soap opera in here. I want to move in with Max at this point, i'll move into the old double apartment, let D and J fix their problems on their own. I am not a group therapist, a staff or a mediator. I've said this before but apparently people cannot grasp this concept. I feel so tired and all I did was go to the day program. It's like the anger just simmers until i blow and cruel words and sarcasm and anger spew from my mouth. I don't mean to be mean, I just need to learn a better way to deal with stress besides SI, purging, bingeing or all my other bad habits. Well, I should go because we are supposedly leaving somewhere and I can't wait to get out of the house. Actually I'm not sure if we are or aren't going anywhere but whatever I don't have anything else to say.
<3,
molliebear
<3,
molliebear
2 Comments:
Working can be over-rated...yer worth more than any paycheck being 3$ or 300$ a day. My asshole dad made alot of money and we both know how wonderful he really was...so...from that I know that yer job dun accurately measure yer worth. I'm yer best friend (one of um at least) and I dun see your for yer job...I see you for you...my molliebear...and no offense but could care less if u work or not as long as yer safe-ish and still able to be my friend. That's all I care about. I know a job sounds really important to u atm...but u know u need a break...and I know u need a break...and I think taking that break when u need it shows more personal self-care strength than throwing yerself into something u most likely can't handle atm for "putting on the mask" sake. I love u know matter what...just so u know that. And all that u truly need will come to u in time, i know that. There's my lil person preachy speech of the day. Love yer guts!
Hey Mollie its jen from Sp just wanted to leave you a message I miss you soo sooomuch I saw your comment on dawns blog so i figured out how to get on ur blog I hope its okay.....You can leave me a message on my blog too...hope u r ok I m slipping slowly....but still alive yeah...heheehh talk to ya soon u can add me too too your aol if yay want cjksc2005@aol
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