The definition of irritable right now= Mollie

I'm really really pissed off. I think it's all anger I've been holding in for a long time coming out. I want to cut (and probably will the way this night's going). J came back from "running away" for 3 days and said she appreciated what she has here, hours later she's talking about how she hates coming back and how it's a stupid idea except that she had to "look out for her friends"- as if we're in some torture chamber or something. She's got PMS in addition to that. D and D^2 both thought she shouldn't get *yet another* chance. She doesn't follow the rules, bitches and complains about what she does do and leaves things halfway finished. I swear we spend more time cleaning up after her than we do interacting with her. She's like a small child that needs constant attention because their world is an "all about me" kind of place. I'm not saying I don't act that way but I don't act that way *everyday*. So my other friend DB is out of the hospital. I'm going on Saturday if they take admissions over the weekends. If not it'll probably be Friday. Living with this person(mentioned earlier) is so very stressful that the hospital is like a vacation away from her- this is not WHY I'm going, that's just an added bonus. I think it's unfair that if anyone else here had left for 3 days they'd be kicked out of the program, but not her because she has no other place to go. She's the oldest now and the least mature. It feels like interacting with a hyperactive hyena. I know I'm being bitchy but I just need to be IP and get some of this anger out safely and effectively. The only downside of PIW is that they have tx twice a week instead of three times a week like at SP. Something good that I did today was get a manicure and pedicure though it left me with little money. I got an ice cream cone with sprinkles and everything as a reward for the child parts not picking the color of nailpolish and allowing people to touch us. We get to the van.
You can't take that on the van.
Can she stand outside and finish it?
No. We have to leave, why should we wait for her?
Me fuck it Could that be any more of a "fuck you" to the child parts? They're crying and demanding cutting or purging now.Fucking great, thanks a lot,ASSHOLES. The anger just comes over me in waves. I need to talk to Dawn or Sam or do something to let this anger out- not on them but vent somehow. I don't even have bus to talk to :( I feel so abandoned and alone with my housemates for some reason. more later