So there's a shitty fight going on between my brother and my mom. It's scaring the crap outta me and I want to run. I want to purge, I want to cut, I want out. I can't stand it. I need to get the hell out. This is why I think my stomach hurts like hell, this stress, this yelling, all this bullshit. I hate it. And they wonder why the hell I overdosed (and friggin' failed at it). Ugh. So, now my mom is going off somewhere and leaving me here with him. I dunno wtf to do...

So, things are kind of crappy. Struggling is well known though, so I guess it's not really new territory. Things are strained, therapy is getting really hard. My therapist is actually giving me the option to "take a break" but she also told me medically that she doesn't really think it's a great idea and that I need the support. I also think I'm developing an ulcer, it's really painful :( pepto is my new best friend. Not much else to say for now... <3,



-sadangelx
(molliebear)

Not too much going on... Have still been searching for rooms/apartments/townhouses to share. I've been catching up on the Grey's anatomy episodes that I have missed along the way over the weekend. My ED has been pretty crappy, but no self harm. I've been stuffing too much away and I'm scared of when it's going to blow up in my face. Must go...





-molliebear

So, still searching for rooms for rent/ apartments... I'm not very good at this. I'm running into dead ends. I can't get anywhere because my brother keeps taking control of the internet before I can really get any fucking work done on it... Eh, anyways.. I feel like I'm not getting anywhere with all of this, feeling very stuck. Starting to stuff everything inside and can't really do therapy because it's not too safe to let it all out. Have to go...




-molliebear

So it's early (for me at least)... am looking over apartments/rooms for rent more (have almost had enough of that crap). Really tired, stayed up late. Been contemplating SI for a long time and last night was more SU ideation kinda stuff. It comes and goes though.. so all is good i guess. Have to go, will write more later..<3,



-sadangelx
(Molliebear)