I feel like shit physically. I have a headache and my freaking arm hurts. i guess it's all that reconnecting-healing-nerves crap but my fingers can move fine so i dunno. i have community room for a week because i forgot to take out two small bags of trash. i hate this house so much. it is so petty. I feel so irritable lately, it is either irritable or exhausted. I'm anxious about seeing my therapist tomorrow, i haven't seen him in more than a week. i feel pretty hopeless and worthless right now. i feel like i have no friends (I have about 5, and none of them live near me). i get the passing thoughts of suicide and i really want to cut but im trying my damndest not to fall again. I know if they catch me cutting i will go IP again and maybe get sent to a state hospital which i *DO NOT WANT AT ALL!!!!*. I don't want to rot away in some institution somewhere. well, i have nothing positive to say so im off.



-molliebear