i am a fat fucking slob. i am disgusting. all the fucking shit that happened to me is my fault. i fucking hate myself. i want to end it all so bad.. one of my parts came out and scared my roomate and now i feel like shit. ive been switching all damn day because i (mollie) have been having unsafe stuff going on and it's been a free for all with parts coming out. i want to cut so badly. i dont see the point in avoiding it anymore. who cares if i hurt. off.