feeling the need to punish self. i didnt get the one bedroom apartment, even though i didn't really half ways want it because i didnt want to move apartments again. i feel like im not good enough in terms of having a clean apartment, staying safe, getting up in the morning. i want to cut so much. im going to be alone in my apartment tonight because my roomate was the one who got the apartment. i like this in some aspects and not in others. if im alone i can cut and purge freely but if im alone i can cut and purge freely (make sense??). well, im off, my pizza is on the way. <3,





-molliebear