time does not heal.

I had a good first day back at work. I did price changes (i got to use an RF gun,yay!) and a little bit of register stuff. I even got a credit app. yay. it's hard to get my body to adjust to standing all day again. i dont have work tomorrow, but i do go back wed. for only 4 hours. I'm scared of seeing my t tomorrow, im "secretly" going to interview some other t's (even the guy :P) . I think maybe a guy would be a good change. i dunno. he might trigger child parts, who knows. i have a huge knot in my hair, ugh, im so damn lazy im not gonna mess with it tonight. i seriously feel like SI-ing and purging (i ordered pizza tonight and am drinking regular coke, not diet). i feel like crap again. maybe tomorrow will be better. who knows. i should at least try (not make any attempts on my life..as of right now. well, i have nothing else to say i dont guess. I miss Dawn so much but i understand the antisocial, isolating thingie. jus' wanna let her know that we(all of us) love her and will support her through anything. <3,



-molliebear