and now they're not

i had a total suck ass day. my check couldn't be cashed today because it's dated for tomorrow. I messed up a travelers check today majorly and an 09 had to come fix my fuck up. People in line threw their shit down and left. We were seriously understaffed, it was ridiculous, I spent four hours trying to please people that gave me no gratitude (not that I really expected any...) and was asked when i was due at least 10 times. This just adds fuel to the ED fire. Seriously. I am never going to ask anyone if they are pregnant EVER, even if they mention it, I WONT, JUST SAY NO!! I wanna make a button that says "I'm not due" but i dunno if i'd get into trouble for that. I feel like the 09 thought i was too stupid to run the jewelry area, he was gonna make us do two hour shifts on it but my shift never came.I feel like a complete fuck up, I wanted to quit SOOOOOOO badly, that was after the wave of wanting to just slash my arms up with a pin. I am no longer in the "honeymoon" (as i call it) phase of working there anymore- I'm at the "fuck it, take it for free you fucking asshole/bitch/bastard". One lady asked me if I was going to leave because I went near the doors (just to get to another register to get a calculator!!), wtf, "Yes, I'm just going to quit my job when there's no one to cover my register, this is my only job that I get paid for, and there are 48584932593 customers" YES you FUCKHEAD I'm leaving,haha. I lasted tho, and I don't have to work tomorrow. The fucking schedule wasn't up b/c poor Rhonda was in some accident when her son tried to teach her how to ride a dirtbike and she hit a tree and some people say she needed staples in her scalp and other say just stitches. She is the sweetest person there, I wanna get her a "get well" card but I dunno when she's coming back or how to get it to her. Connie was sweet too, but she's more of a hardass. I feel so crappy because the 09 today was super cute and I'm just fat ugly and undesirable. I wanna be thin like the other girls that work there. It SUCKS. I have tx tomorrow so maybe this crap will come out there. I'm exhausted, it's like working a 9 hour day because of the club and then work. I just kept focusing on my paycheck when I wanted to storm out or quit. I don't think I'm ever gonna get any more credits ever. It's been like 2 weeks since I've got one. I hate it. I think if I was thin and pretty and desirable then more people would sign up for one. The ones I do get are out of sympathy because they think im pregnant. enough ranting, it doesn't do any good really. <3,




-a very melancholy molliebear