so i finished my last crack of dawn shift for this week. i work tomorrow 3-8pm. i got someone to cover me on saturday so I can visit with my aunt and uncle and maybe my cousins. I don't know how i feel right now, kinda numb. the perfect mood to SI but I went to the Y today and swam and got in the hot tub and i want no more scars. my housemate did the sweetest little thing today that really touched my heart- i had my sleeves rolled up when we were on the van and she saw my SI scars and rubbed her finger over one and then kissed her finger and touched the scar. it was just so sweet that she acknowledged the hurt. she's not a real warm and fuzzy person so it was a really sweet gesture. anyway, someone i know might have cancer and im scared. my aunt died of cancer so all i can imagine is her getting sicker and sicker and dying. it's a terrible thought. well, at least im feeling kind of stable most of the time. i dunno. i wouldn't go so far as to say im doing well. gotta go, <3,




-molliebear