I'm tired of waiting for other people to be responsible. We can't go to Wal-mart until the boys and another girl's apartment are "spotless" because they're doing big inspections of our apartments by CARF. It's some agency no one knows about what it stands for. I need a scale, my goal is to lose 5 pounds this month and I've been taking 2 mile walks everyday and drinking diet soda dedicatedly. I'm adding in more water. I only eat low point foods(I'm trying weight watchers){at least for today}. I feel the emptiness in my stomach and the purity of there being small amounts of food inside. My therapist wants me to rehash my entire abuse history to her. yeah fucking right. I don't think any of me(I have DID) is going to say a damn thing to her about our past. On a positive note: there might be a new female housemate for us. Um , yeah, that's probably the only good thing i have to say right now. I want to walk more but no one wants to walk with me. damn it