my more detailed update. I'm having a really really hard time wanting to self injure tonight. I'm not sure why. I got all my chores done, my apartment is clean enough for me, I did DDR until I was dripping with sweat. Good exercise. My stomach kind of hurts, im hungry but scared to eat. I've lost a couple pounds already with the Alli. It's good stuff. Now I'm crashing, but we have scary movies to watch so i want to stay up later. im feeling spacey (not quite dissociative). i want to cut so badly. it's a real battle tonight. One of my housemates asked about the cuts on my leg. He was like "Hey Mollie, you have a scrape on your leg" and I was like "I know"
and he said something like "well, you fell or something by accident" and i just didnt say anything and it ended there. He (not to be mean) isnt really smart enough to put two and two together. ugh, im fighting so damn hard. i want to cry. ugh. i wish i had friends here i could hug or something. time to go, we ordered pizza, YEAHHHHH. <3,





-molliebear