I hate me.

i hate myself. i want to cut. i want to cry. i just want to hide for a long time. sleep for a long time. i miss dawn and sam and having friends IRL. shitty day. not because something shitty happened- because NOTHING happened is the point. Nothing ever happens. I'm starting to feel SU, i might just cut tonight i dunno. i want to cry so badly.life just sucks. my dad is a fucking asshole. FUCK YOU YOU FUCKING DICK. YOURE WORTHLESS AS A FATHER! god damn it. why does all this shit still affect me??? It's been 6 fucking years since it ended. I hate myself so much. I wish someone would end it for me. im in some sort of floaty numb(to positive emotions) hurting place right now and im trying to claw my way out of it. i hate myself so fucking much. god damn. i want to die. i want the pain to go away. i want to cry and sob and cut myself to fucking pieces.






-molliebear