i am broken inside and i want to hide

im having a really hard time. i want to cut really bad. i dont know why i feel so upset but i am so anxious i could cry. i feel so blah and numb and flat except for the anxiety. im trying to listen to music, journal and talk to friends online but it's not really helping me. i just took my 1pm klonopin an half hour ago. its not doing shit. i want to cry but i can't. the tears wont come. i hate this feeling. i just want to run until it all goes away. i want to take something that will make me sleep for a while and give me a pause on life. i cant do anything like that though. its just a fantasy. i feel alone in this world. i feel like i have no friends. i feel like im just a pain in the ass to everyone. a burden, an obligation. i want to run away from all of my problems. this probably doesn't make any sense. <3,


-molliebear