Everything about me.... a distraction-
An "Everything Me" Survey
Fill In...
I Want: to feel okay with myself, for the pain to go away
I Have: very little hope right now, and i have a bed that i like to be in all the time
I Wish: i had a childhood. that i could just be "all better" w/o the work
I Hate: myself
I Miss(ed): being a child
I Fear: anger
I Hear: myself talking in my sleep
I Search For: myself
I Wonder: what it's like to have a caring, normal father or at least one that doesn't abuse me
I Love: my aunt (even though she's not on this earth anymore), my grandma, my mom, my stuffed animals
I Ache: because i feel like there is a void in my life
I Always: screw up everything
I Am Not: happy...safe...anything good
I Dance: in my group room to 80's music
I Sing: in the car, or alone
I Cry: not often enough (they tears wont flow)
I Am Not Always: kind to myself
I Win: one game, PDQ
I Lose: everything
I Confuse: when things happened and time
I Need: love, attention, patience
I Should: stop shoving food in my face
My father thinks I am: crazy because he doesn't acknowledge the abuse
My mother thinks I am: better than i really am
What makes me happy: dawnie-pooh-pooh-kiss-kiss, Samula, my IRL friends, sleep, and unfortunately SI
Yes or No...
you keep a diary: blog
you have a secret you have not shared with anyone: yes, hence the abuse dynamic
you set your watch ahead:yes
you bite your fingernails: no
you believe in love: occasionally
Who is...?
the prettiest female you know: Dawn and Sam
the loudest person you know: me i guess
the person that knows the most about you: dawn
most boring teacher: none ATM
Do You...?
take a shower everyday: every other day
want to get married: maybe
have any tattoos/where?: none yet
get motion sickness: rarely
think you're a health freak: no
get along with your parents: my mother (i hate my father, we haven't spoken in 5 years)
Pick One...
Cuddle or Make Out: cuddle
Chocolate Milk, or Hot Chocolate?: chocolate milk
Dark, milk, OR White Chocolate?: milk chocolate
Vanilla OR Chocolate? chocolate
In the past week have you...?
Cried?: today
Helped Someone?: yeah
Bought something?: yeah
Gotten Sick?: yeah
Gone to the Movies?: No
Gone out for Dinner?: does mcdonalds count?
SAID "I LOVE YOU"?: yes
Written a Real Letter?: no
Written in a Journal?: yea
Talked to a crush?: yea
Had a Serious Talk?: Yeah..therapy today
Missed Someone?: Yes!!!!!!!
Hugged someone?: yeah
Fought With Your Parents?: no
Fought With a Friend?: No
Would You Ever...?
1. Eat a bug? no
2. Bungee jump? over water
3. Hang glide? yes
4. Kill someone? no but sometimes i wish i could
5. Have sex with someone you don't love? dunno
6. Kiss someone of the same sex? i prefer girls anyhow
7. Have sex with someone of the same sex? done that before
8. Parachute from a plane? no
9. Walk on hot coals? no
10. Go out with someone for their looks? no
11. For their reputation? no
12. Be a vegetarian? yes, i was
14. IM a stranger? done it in the past
15. Sing karaoke? done it before
16. Get drunk off your ass? no
17. Shoplift? eh.......
18. Run a red light? yeah
19. Star in a porn video? maybe
20. Dye your hair blue? done it
21. Be on Survivor? no
22. Wear makeup in public? yeah??..
23. NOT wear makeup in public? i don't
24. Cheat on a test? have
25. Make someone cry? I have
26. Call your math teacher a motherfucker? what????
27. Kick a baby? WTF???
28. Date someone more than ten years older than you? nah
29. Cuss out a priest? sure :D
30. Take a job as a janitor? if I needed to
Pick One...
Coke ~ Pepsi:: diet coke plus
Sprite ~ Mountain Dew:: diet mountain dew
Dr. Pepper ~ Root Beer:: diet dr. pepper
Water ~ Milk:: milk
Beer ~ Wine:: neither
Butter ~ Margerine:: neither
Hot Dog ~ Hamburger:: hot dog
Cupcakes ~ Muffins:: both....dawn knows why ;x
Donuts ~ Bagels:: both
Ice Cream ~ Cake:: ice cream
Cookies ~ Chocolate:: chocolate
Raspberries ~ Strawberries:: raspberries
Apples ~ Bananas:: either
Cherries ~ Kiwis:: cherries
Black ~ White:: black
Guys ~ Girls:: Girls :)
Moon ~ Sun:: Moon
Night ~ Day:: Night
Dark ~ Light:: Dark
Ocean ~ Sea:: Ocean
Rap ~ Rock:: Rock
N*SYNC ~ BSB:: Neither
Sublime ~ Bob Marley:: Sublime!!!!!!!!!!
Puddle of Mudd ~ Nirvana:: Nirvana!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ACDC~sex pistols:: Neither
Hugs ~ Kisses:: Hugs
America ~ Europe:: Either
Asia ~ Africa:: either
Michael Jackson ~ Janet Jackson:: Neither
Michael Jackson ~ R. Kelly:: Neither
Ashley Olsen ~ Mary-Kate Olsen:: dun care
Johnny Depp ~ Orlando Bloom:: dun careeeeeeeeee
Leo Dicaprio ~ Josh Hartnett:: see above answer
Pamela Anderson ~ Angelina Jolie:: Angelina all the way!!
Jennifer Anniston ~ Demi More:: dont care
Ashton Kutcher ~ Justin Timberlake:: haha, justin because his voice is so girly he could pass as me
Cows ~ Sheep:: i love all animals
Soccer ~ Rugby:: soccer
Football ~ Hockey:: hockey
Baseball ~ Basketball:: Neither
Swimming ~ Golf:: Swimming
Limes ~ Lemons:: Lemons
Hot ~ Cold:: cold, im usually warm
This ~ That:: eh
Pen ~ Pencil:: Pen
Two Piece ~ One Piece:: Depends
Thongs ~ Panties:: girls boxers
Boxers ~ Briefs:: who cares
Short Hair ~ Long Hair:: Long
Heaven ~ Hell:: agnostic
Tea ~ Coffee:: Tea
Bad Breath ~ Crooked Teeth:: Bad breath
Rain ~ Snow:: Rain
Fun ~ Safety:: ?...
Passion ~ Fun:: um...?
Happiness ~ Freedom:: Both
Fill In...
I Want: to feel okay with myself, for the pain to go away
I Have: very little hope right now, and i have a bed that i like to be in all the time
I Wish: i had a childhood. that i could just be "all better" w/o the work
I Hate: myself
I Miss(ed): being a child
I Fear: anger
I Hear: myself talking in my sleep
I Search For: myself
I Wonder: what it's like to have a caring, normal father or at least one that doesn't abuse me
I Love: my aunt (even though she's not on this earth anymore), my grandma, my mom, my stuffed animals
I Ache: because i feel like there is a void in my life
I Always: screw up everything
I Am Not: happy...safe...anything good
I Dance: in my group room to 80's music
I Sing: in the car, or alone
I Cry: not often enough (they tears wont flow)
I Am Not Always: kind to myself
I Win: one game, PDQ
I Lose: everything
I Confuse: when things happened and time
I Need: love, attention, patience
I Should: stop shoving food in my face
My father thinks I am: crazy because he doesn't acknowledge the abuse
My mother thinks I am: better than i really am
What makes me happy: dawnie-pooh-pooh-kiss-kiss, Samula, my IRL friends, sleep, and unfortunately SI
Yes or No...
you keep a diary: blog
you have a secret you have not shared with anyone: yes, hence the abuse dynamic
you set your watch ahead:yes
you bite your fingernails: no
you believe in love: occasionally
Who is...?
the prettiest female you know: Dawn and Sam
the loudest person you know: me i guess
the person that knows the most about you: dawn
most boring teacher: none ATM
Do You...?
take a shower everyday: every other day
want to get married: maybe
have any tattoos/where?: none yet
get motion sickness: rarely
think you're a health freak: no
get along with your parents: my mother (i hate my father, we haven't spoken in 5 years)
Pick One...
Cuddle or Make Out: cuddle
Chocolate Milk, or Hot Chocolate?: chocolate milk
Dark, milk, OR White Chocolate?: milk chocolate
Vanilla OR Chocolate? chocolate
In the past week have you...?
Cried?: today
Helped Someone?: yeah
Bought something?: yeah
Gotten Sick?: yeah
Gone to the Movies?: No
Gone out for Dinner?: does mcdonalds count?
SAID "I LOVE YOU"?: yes
Written a Real Letter?: no
Written in a Journal?: yea
Talked to a crush?: yea
Had a Serious Talk?: Yeah..therapy today
Missed Someone?: Yes!!!!!!!
Hugged someone?: yeah
Fought With Your Parents?: no
Fought With a Friend?: No
Would You Ever...?
1. Eat a bug? no
2. Bungee jump? over water
3. Hang glide? yes
4. Kill someone? no but sometimes i wish i could
5. Have sex with someone you don't love? dunno
6. Kiss someone of the same sex? i prefer girls anyhow
7. Have sex with someone of the same sex? done that before
8. Parachute from a plane? no
9. Walk on hot coals? no
10. Go out with someone for their looks? no
11. For their reputation? no
12. Be a vegetarian? yes, i was
14. IM a stranger? done it in the past
15. Sing karaoke? done it before
16. Get drunk off your ass? no
17. Shoplift? eh.......
18. Run a red light? yeah
19. Star in a porn video? maybe
20. Dye your hair blue? done it
21. Be on Survivor? no
22. Wear makeup in public? yeah??..
23. NOT wear makeup in public? i don't
24. Cheat on a test? have
25. Make someone cry? I have
26. Call your math teacher a motherfucker? what????
27. Kick a baby? WTF???
28. Date someone more than ten years older than you? nah
29. Cuss out a priest? sure :D
30. Take a job as a janitor? if I needed to
Pick One...
Coke ~ Pepsi:: diet coke plus
Sprite ~ Mountain Dew:: diet mountain dew
Dr. Pepper ~ Root Beer:: diet dr. pepper
Water ~ Milk:: milk
Beer ~ Wine:: neither
Butter ~ Margerine:: neither
Hot Dog ~ Hamburger:: hot dog
Cupcakes ~ Muffins:: both....dawn knows why ;x
Donuts ~ Bagels:: both
Ice Cream ~ Cake:: ice cream
Cookies ~ Chocolate:: chocolate
Raspberries ~ Strawberries:: raspberries
Apples ~ Bananas:: either
Cherries ~ Kiwis:: cherries
Black ~ White:: black
Guys ~ Girls:: Girls :)
Moon ~ Sun:: Moon
Night ~ Day:: Night
Dark ~ Light:: Dark
Ocean ~ Sea:: Ocean
Rap ~ Rock:: Rock
N*SYNC ~ BSB:: Neither
Sublime ~ Bob Marley:: Sublime!!!!!!!!!!
Puddle of Mudd ~ Nirvana:: Nirvana!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ACDC~sex pistols:: Neither
Hugs ~ Kisses:: Hugs
America ~ Europe:: Either
Asia ~ Africa:: either
Michael Jackson ~ Janet Jackson:: Neither
Michael Jackson ~ R. Kelly:: Neither
Ashley Olsen ~ Mary-Kate Olsen:: dun care
Johnny Depp ~ Orlando Bloom:: dun careeeeeeeeee
Leo Dicaprio ~ Josh Hartnett:: see above answer
Pamela Anderson ~ Angelina Jolie:: Angelina all the way!!
Jennifer Anniston ~ Demi More:: dont care
Ashton Kutcher ~ Justin Timberlake:: haha, justin because his voice is so girly he could pass as me
Cows ~ Sheep:: i love all animals
Soccer ~ Rugby:: soccer
Football ~ Hockey:: hockey
Baseball ~ Basketball:: Neither
Swimming ~ Golf:: Swimming
Limes ~ Lemons:: Lemons
Hot ~ Cold:: cold, im usually warm
This ~ That:: eh
Pen ~ Pencil:: Pen
Two Piece ~ One Piece:: Depends
Thongs ~ Panties:: girls boxers
Boxers ~ Briefs:: who cares
Short Hair ~ Long Hair:: Long
Heaven ~ Hell:: agnostic
Tea ~ Coffee:: Tea
Bad Breath ~ Crooked Teeth:: Bad breath
Rain ~ Snow:: Rain
Fun ~ Safety:: ?...
Passion ~ Fun:: um...?
Happiness ~ Freedom:: Both
posted by sadangelx at 7:59 PM
1 Comments:
Awesome u posted this...I miss playing PDQ with u, could have written many of the same answers as u, give u all the love, attention and affection I can and wish i could give u more...all u missed, need and more...and I am so lovin the Justin Timberlake comment, I am over here crackin up...it's so true :)
LYG!
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