today was kinda okay i guess. my ankle is acting up again. i feel scared and little inside right now. feeling a little numb, more like im on auto pilot. i want to cut (i will cut tonight). im seeing my mom tomorrow, i should look forward to that but all i can think about is seeing the red. im falling apart. i miss dawn and sam so much i could cry. i feel alone even though i have roomates and housemates and whatnot. im tired of the freaking curfew they've put on me (have to be in bed by 9). it ends on the 23rd but i feel like a kid that has to stand in the corner for being bad. i can't watch my favorite show (House) because it's on after nine. not much else to say, i want to cry and look forward to cutting. <3,




-Samantha (with mollie close)