i know this is my zillionth post of the day but the hurt wont go away. i want to cut, i want to OD, i want to be loved. i want friends, i want a social life, i want to be normal. i want to not be treated inferior. i hate my life. i do. i really do. im trying to change it. maybe i should just go to bed and sleep off my misery. i want to cry but i can't cry down here cuz they'll know something is up. i dont know what to do to make myself feel better. going no where. i hate my life. i probably already wrote that a zillion times but its true. fighting su thoughts. i just want a hug. i want someone to validate my pain. but it wont happen.