at home now. just realizing i've been self injuring for 9 years. it doesn't seem that long.hmmm. ive been doing okay tonight, im nervous about april 1st (my dad's b-day) because it's a really bad anniversary. My t was semi-helpful today. Rage has been so damn close all day, little things he says are slipping out everywhere so i'll let him journal.

WARNING:
Well, let me just put a disclaimer up here, what Rage says is going to be mean,rude, offensive, whatever, but if it makes him feel better to journal here than i'll let him so he doesn't act out on the body or physically harm others. words are just words.





THE FUCKING THERAPIST DOESNT KNOW SHIT. IM NOT SOME FUCKING ABUSER PART.. WE HAVE ALL THESE FUCKING MINORITIES COMING INTO THE GOD DAMN COUNTRY AND THEY DONT EVEN BOTHER TO LEARN FUCKING ENGLISH. YOU'RE IN THE U.S. YOU FUCKING MORON, WE DONT SPEAK *SPANISH*. WHY THE FUCK SHOULD I LEARN YOUR LANGUAGE WHEN IM NOT GOING TO YOUR COUNTRY??? LAZY SPICS, I SWEAR THEY ARE ONLY GOOD FOR MANUAL LABOR. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW A DECENT HISPANIC DOCTOR? OR A HISPANIC LAWYER??? YOU HAVENT. THATS THE FUCKING POINT. FUCK ALL OF THEM. FUCK THIS SYSTEM AND ALL THESE OTHER "PARTS" AS MOLLIE CALLS THEM. IM THE STRONGEST ONE, SO WHY THE FUCK DO I HAVE TO BE KEPT INSIDE ALL THE TIME?? SO WHAT IF IM FUCKING OFFENSIVE, WHO GIVES A SHIT. IM JUST SAYING SHIT EVERYONE ELSE THINKS. FUCK MOLLIE, FUCK THE SYSTEM, FUCK THE PARTS.

Well, wasn't that nice. hopefully i can get some sleep now. <3,


-molliebear