insomnia and body memories.. hoorah,NOT.

been having body memories for the past couple hours and i can't sleep. I want my mommy. I want to be held and cradled until the pain goes away. i wish i didn't have to go to therapy ever again. I hate it. I feel like nothing is helping and im a lost cause. why keep working on something so irreconcilable. i hate me. i hurt. i hope it ends. hopefully the benadryl will kick in? I'm really panicky and I don't like it. I want to cut so badly. what a mess i am. <3,




-molliebear