3-2-06 post
3-2-06
I got my hair cut and dyed today. It looks rather nice, they thinned it out so I don’t get tangles so much and I have sort of red highlights. Katey came back to work but she’s still pretty upset about losing her godson. It’s so tragic and terrible, he was only 19, just like me. It makes me wonder about my own mortality and I try to justify and explain why these sort of things happen- and there aren’t any answers- you’re just left with the sorrow and regret and that void place in your heart. On another less serious note, we passed the dreaded CSA inspections. They went as so far as to check the fridges for outdated food (as in, if it expired yesterday or today it was noted…) Part of that pressure to maintain a perfect apartment is eased. I was starting to feel such strong SI impulses I didn’t think I could handle them, but I’ve made it this far and the new problem is forcing myself to use my Michaels(craft store) gift card for art supplies instead of other non-helpful things that are also sold there. I need to think of a project so I can specifically look for those items needed to do the craft. One mini-possie I had for today (today has been hell) is that I bought myself a really soft peach colored robe (I would’ve chosen a different color but it was peach or yellow.) I miss my mom right now, I wish I could stay the weekend with her but the chances of that going through are slim to none. I feel creative all of a sudden, I have no idea why. It’s probably the damn med changes. On Wellbutrin now, first time I took it when I was 11 or so it made me feel dizzy like I was spinning in circles and I couldn’t handle it. It doesn’t have that effect on me this time and (hopefully) this will work for me because so far it doesn’t make me drowsy and “it doesn’t produce sexual side effects”! Of course that’s of importance to me. I miss Sam and Dawn, I think of them daily. I think of Chantal at least once a month, usually around the 19th (the day she committed suicide). Getting drowsy from these meds, <3,
-molliebear
I got my hair cut and dyed today. It looks rather nice, they thinned it out so I don’t get tangles so much and I have sort of red highlights. Katey came back to work but she’s still pretty upset about losing her godson. It’s so tragic and terrible, he was only 19, just like me. It makes me wonder about my own mortality and I try to justify and explain why these sort of things happen- and there aren’t any answers- you’re just left with the sorrow and regret and that void place in your heart. On another less serious note, we passed the dreaded CSA inspections. They went as so far as to check the fridges for outdated food (as in, if it expired yesterday or today it was noted…) Part of that pressure to maintain a perfect apartment is eased. I was starting to feel such strong SI impulses I didn’t think I could handle them, but I’ve made it this far and the new problem is forcing myself to use my Michaels(craft store) gift card for art supplies instead of other non-helpful things that are also sold there. I need to think of a project so I can specifically look for those items needed to do the craft. One mini-possie I had for today (today has been hell) is that I bought myself a really soft peach colored robe (I would’ve chosen a different color but it was peach or yellow.) I miss my mom right now, I wish I could stay the weekend with her but the chances of that going through are slim to none. I feel creative all of a sudden, I have no idea why. It’s probably the damn med changes. On Wellbutrin now, first time I took it when I was 11 or so it made me feel dizzy like I was spinning in circles and I couldn’t handle it. It doesn’t have that effect on me this time and (hopefully) this will work for me because so far it doesn’t make me drowsy and “it doesn’t produce sexual side effects”! Of course that’s of importance to me
-molliebear
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