You piss me off, you fucking jerk, get on my nerves

We put the christmas tree up here at TAY. There was a really beautiful angel that was 9$ that I wanted for the top of the tree but they said no- so it kinda busted my spirit. I feel crappy physically(If I don't eat I feel like puking, if i do eat i feel like puking). I feel like cutting and purging though I've done so much damage to my esophogus that i don't think it could handle anymore purging. they said i probably have a hiatal hernia and that's why i feel the chest pain and heartburn and nausea. The only way to fix it is surgically so obviously I'm not going to do that. They don't even know for sure. I'm living off Phenergan, Jello and Rolaids. I've also had really bad migraines but they could be rebound b/c I've taken Fioricet almost everytime my head remotely hurt. My good friend D is out of the hospital but she's not online. I'm dying to talk to her and see how she's doing. I'm really sick and tired of the drama that goes on here. I can understand why M.N. stays in her/his room all the time and works. I got a job at Target- J and D were told that they'd get a phone call (which means they didn't get the job most likely). They had a lot of personality type questions on the application. I feel good about having a job and getting money(even if way station takes half :/) J is driving me CRAZY with the damn DVD player, she's listening to CDs and every 30 seconds she changes the song. ADHD to the extreme! I'm playing the David Allen Coe song that says "You pissed me off, you fucking jerk, you get on my nerves" and she doesn't get it that I'm playing this song because of her. Somebody SHOOT ME!!!!!!!!!! AGHHh. all I feel like is sleeping and staying in my bed forever. that and cutting/purging. Mostly dealing with purging impulses. i miss my samula and Dawnie-pooh-pooh-kiss-kiss. I feel so fucking sick. I've taken so much meds today. I hope working at target works out... I'm scared I'm going to flunk out of school. I can't get in touch with my math professor to ask for the incomplete, it's pissing me off.
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Molliebear