i feel like shit. i feel so intensely sad and i dont know why. i want to be invisible. im borderline suicidal right now. i feel alone. i feel like i have no friends. i feel like im not important. i feel like i have no purpose being here on earth. im not even 21 yet and i want it all to end. ive spent my whole life trying to forget all the fucked up stuff my abusers did and they're winning tonight. there was a reason they picked me to hurt. i have no friends. nobody cares about me. im not sure anyone would notice if i died. they would probably feel a sense of relief, a reprieve. i want this pain to stop. i dont know how to make myself feel better. i hate myself.